Archive | October, 2010

Spinning around and around and around

30 Oct

To stay in the spirit of Halloween, I have the feeling my head is spinning around Exorcist-style.

There’s only so much room in my head! Since June, I’ve known that I’m going to be leaving my current job, moving on to something else. Long live redundancy. And I was okay with that. Looking forward to it even. Yesterday was going to be my last day. This last week has been mad, but good. I was actually enjoying my job again. What a new team and new management can do huh? And now, I had to say goodbye. Or… not?

Thursday the manager came to me, asking me if I want to think about staying around until I found something else. Yesterday we talked again, and he asked me how I would feel about applying for the job again. Because of the reorganisation and my redundancy there are lots of procedures. So I thought about it long and hard and said yes to that.

So no turning in my passes yesterday, no clearing out my locker and no flowers. I won’t know until Tuesday if I can actually come back ‘temporarily’ and then I have to wait for another few weeks to find out if I get my old job back.

Like I said, my head is spinning. Since June I’ve been getting ready to say goodbye to my job and my colleagues after 5 years. And now things might change again? Or not? Ahhhhh. For months I was hoping to get away as soon as possible and now I’m hoping I won’t have to go. I wonder if it has something to do with me being a Gemini. Hmmm.

One thing I do know: I need a drink! Happy Halloween!

How did we do it….

24 Oct

I’m having one of those typical Sunday afternoon moments. One of those “things that make you go hmm” moments.

Sitting here with my laptop, iTunes playing, iPhone next to me. And I just can’t imagine not having those things around me. Typewriters, payphones, phonebooks, you name it. Can’t remember having to use those.

I’ve met people through the internet because of our common interest in the music of Il Divo. Thanks to that I’ve made friends for life in various countries. I’ve been to so many places, created the best memories.

Thanks to technology the world because so much bigger but so much smaller at the same time. You want information? Google it. No more trips to the library.

Downside of having everything and everyone available at all times is that people expect you to be available at all times. If you don’t reply to a text within 24 hours, you can count on a “why are you ignoring me” comment. Sometimes I just love to switch off the laptop, put my iPhone away and just read my book.

But after a while I become restless. Has anyone emailed me? Texted me? Whatsapp’ed me? Called me? Sent an interesting Tweet? Put something interesting on Facebook? Once I’ve done a quick round of all my media, I can relax and continue reading my book. Until it’s time for round 2. And so it goes on.

How did we ever do it? I can’t imagine going back to a life without all of these tools and media at my disposal. Do I want to go back? No way! That would mean no more playing Angry Birds on my iPhone!

The miracle of Chile

16 Oct

And yet another weekend is here. It’s just insane how quick the weeks go by.

The one thing that stood out for me this week was the rescue of the Chilean miners. Wow, what an operation that was. Imagine being trapped underground with 32 other people, not knowing if you’ll make it out alive. I can’t imagine it, I don’t think anyone can. To see how they kept their spirits up and how they stayed positive and energetic, I think we can all learn from that.

To see that capsule disappear into the earth, knowing that that thing is going to bring all those man back into the real world, was amazing. The thought of having to go inside that thing and then make that journey up, can drive any claustrophobic over the edge. But then again, I doubt many miners suffer from claustrophobia right? I sure hope not!

And out they came, sunglasses on, shaky but happy. Finally seeing their loved ones again. Even after seeing many of them come back, it still brought tears to my eyes. Such pure love and pure emotion. Amazing.

Their lives will never be the same again. They’re heroes now. Celebrities. Books will be written about them. Hollywood will knock on their doors, anxious to tell their story. I sure hope they get a lot of guidance for themselves as for their families. They’ll need it!

Confessions of an office supply addict

12 Oct

Hi, my name is Esther and I’m addicted to office supplies.


Don’t frown, I know that I’m not the only one. When I was younger, I loved when the new schoolyear was about to begin. New notebooks, new pens, new everything. Shiny, new paper, sigh. When you find that one pen that you love so much and you write the first words on that notebook. In your finest handwriting. Because it has to stay pretty. Perfection. When I messed it up on the first page, new notebook! Yes, I’ve always been an office supplies fanatic.

At work, I love my pink and blue Post-Its, my pretty pens, my nice paper, my folders. And don’t get me started about notebooks, diaries and organisers. All sizes, materials, prints, etc. Of course I always find some reason to get yet another notebook or pen. Those things are important!

Yesterday, I went shopping in Newcastle (3 day minicruise, had about 5 hours of sleep in 3 days. Too much partying! ) and my friend and I both saw the ultimate wannahave:

A turqoise/blue Filofax organiser, A5 size.


I saw it. I grabbed it. I flicked through it. I touched it. I stroked it. I loved it. I bought it.

Others can be completely happy with new shoes. I’m that happy with my Filofax. With a matching pen. The diary doesn’t start until January 2011 and I so wish that I could use it already. Patience is a virtue. Maybe I should keep it under my pillow until then. Just kidding, I’m not that weird, honest!

I already wrote my personal info in it. I had to do something in it, right? Until I get to actually use it, I’ll just take it out every now and then and pet it. As you do.

Now, if you will excuse me, I need to organise my paperclips.

Saturday bliss

9 Oct

Have you ever had one of those days where you just sit down in the morning and think: wow, life is pretty good. For no particular reason at all. I just had one of those moments.

I’m sitting here, drinking my morning coffee. The sky is blue and the sun is shining. One of those beautiful after-summer days. I hate autumn and winter. Of course I like the pretty colours and everything, but since I suffer from SAD aka Seasonal Affective Disorder aka Winterdepression, it usually means that rough times are ahead. Especially November, December and January.

But with my faithful Bright Light I’ve managed to battle the symptoms pretty good for the past years.


So when it’s days like this, I enjoy them even more. Is my life perfect? Nope! Do I have issues? Yep! Do I have stuff to worry about? Big time! But by appreciating the small things, life just becomes so much nicer and less stressful. My happy moments for today so far? My cat waking me up with a purr this morning. A lovely cup of coffee. Browsing for a new handbag (haven’t found it yet, that will really make me happy). Organising my make-up (oh how I love Mac and Bobbi Brown make up). Reading a book. Looking at the nice weather outside. Watching the latest episodes of Glee and Dexter. Getting on the scale and seeing I’ve lost 3 kilos, yes! Planning tomorrow’s mini-cruise to Newcastle (can’t wait!)

Happy Moments

And it’s only 10.30 am! Woop woop! This feeling will probably be gone this afternoon, when I’m moaning about having to clean my flat and having to venture into the supermarket on a Saturday but hey, I’ll just enjoy it while it lasts.

Happy Saturday everyone!


3 Oct

Eek, I was internetless! Why don’t you just cut off my arms.

But, I’m back. It’s not like I had any time to write anyway. Pfff. Don’t you just hate it when real life gets in the way? Work has been mad. I work at a bank and we’ve merged with another bank. Last Friday the new teams started to work together. So people from two different banks all moved into one place. Still using seperate computer systems, different phonelines and even serving different clients. Can you spell: CHAOS?

For me, this means the last month in my job has begun. I decided months ago that it was time for me to move on. Then the whole reorganisation happened and they had to get rid of a lot of people. At the start of the selection process I made it clear that I’m not really interested in keeping this job. But the back up plan is really good I have to say. For those who are made redundant, they try to find other jobs within the bank. But there is a catch. The bank decides what they think is the right job for you. You can’t say no, becuase that would mean that you volunteer to resign. Consequence: no benefits, no income, no nothing.

If I don’t get anything before November 1st, I have to make the decision: redundancy fee and leave the bank or enroll in the so called “Redeployment Center” aka RDC. That means that I won’t be working in my current job but during a year, the bank will help me find a new job, inside or outside the bank. I get to do courses, trainings and hopefully a great job will come out of that. The best part is that you get paid normal salary for that entire year. So that’s what I’m going for.

I have a couple of great things lined up so I’m sure something amazing will come out of that soon.
It’s been scary to make the decision, but I’m glad I did. I will miss the people at work though. Last Friday we had a gathering and went out for drinks afterwards. I’m going to miss those crazy people. But I’m sure we’ll manage to stay in touch. Luckily I’m very good at that.

So, one more month. Time will fly, I’m sure. After 5 years in this department it’s time to move on.

It’s time to start a new phase in my life. Somehow these ‘new start’ moments always inspire me to make changes in myself as well. So it’s time to finally cut the c**p and stick with my diet and dust off the crosstrainer. I just did a workout, yay me!

New start. Time to invest in me. In my career, my future, my body, my mind.