Archive | September, 2011

Memories versus change

25 Sep

Sometimes you have to make decisions in life. Your head tells you it’s the right one, but oh, if only things were that simple.

I’ve been living in my apartment for 8 years now. Before I moved here, I lived with my dad, after my mum died 3 years earlier. So it was a hard for me to leave him. How would he cope on his own? But it had to be done. So in December, the apartment was ready for me to move in and I went. My dad helped me out wherever he could. He bought me my curtains, helped paint the place and went shopping with me.

A month after I moved in, my dad was diagnosed with cancer, just like my mum. So instead of organising a housewarming, I was going to the hospital with my dad for endless tests and treatments. He died a year later.

Till this day, my apartment still holds memories of that period. I still have the same curtains, the paint is still here, the memories are still here. Good and bad. But I now feel that it’s holding me back. I need to move on.

So I decided to go look for a place in another city, near work. A friend of mine, who lives in another city, has her place up for sale and she offered it to me, to stay there until I found something near work. So it looks like I’ll be moving soon.

I know that I have to move on, start over fresh. New city, new house, new furniture, new life. And I know that my memories will still be with me, wherever I go. First of all, I don’t like change. I’m just not very good at it. So this would be huge for me anyway. But the thought of leaving this place, knowing that this is the only house that I’ll ever live in where my dad has been, is a painful one.

But I’ll be ok, wherever I go. I might be leaving the curtains behind, but the memories will still be with me.

So, anyone willing to help me paint?

Heaven in a cup

24 Sep

I know that it’s hard to believe for many people, especially from the US, but here in the Netherlands a Starbucks is hard to find.

3 train stations in the country have a Starbucks and you can grab a latte at Amsterdam Airport, but that’s it.

Until now that is!

Earlier this year it was announced that Starbucks is opening a few stores in Amsterdam. Yippie! And that’s not all. No, it gets better. There was going to be a Starbucks 5 minutes from work. The opening had been delayed many times and everyone was starting to wonder if it was ever going to happen.

But, slowly but surely, it was becoming evident that there was indeed going to be a Starbucks. The lettering on the outside, and a board outside, counting the days until the grand opening.

And last Wednesday, finally, Starbucks opened. And heaven opened and angels sang! Okay, maybe not that dramatic.

Last Friday my colleague and I went to check it out. Nice weather, so a perfect walk during our lunchbreak. They turned it into a lovely place but why did everyone have to be there at that exact same time?

We placed our orders: a tall crème brulee macchiato. Yes, you read it right: a crème brulee macchiato. I was heaving a pretty bad day at work. But that delicious, perfectly sweetened coffee drink just made my day. It was like having your dessert and your coffee at the same time. Heaven in a cup indeed! Oh, don’t you just love how simple life can be at times?

creme brulee macchiato

Driving home for Christmas?

13 Sep

One thing we all love to complain about: the weather! It never fails us, it’s always there. It’s either too hot, too cold, too wet, too dry. What would we do if we didn’t have the weather to moan about. It’s perfect to fill awkward silences when you’re standing in a lift with someone you don’t know.

We skipped summer this year and went straight to autumn. I’ve never seen so much rain in my life! Don’t bother going outside with an umbrella, because it will blow to pieces. Because it’s not just rain, it’s wind as well. Can you tell I don’t particularly like this type of weather?

Typical December treats can already be found in the supermarket. Last Friday I went to a party and around midnight one of my friends put on a song. I recognized it immediately. Can it be? He didn’t…. Oh yes, he did! Chris Rea’s Driving Home For Christmas found it’s way to the playlist. Instant depression kicked in.

I’m desperate for some summer, some sun. Do we really have to wait until next April/May? Or is the only option to move to another country? Hmmmm there’s a thought.

Then again, we wouldn’t have anything to complain about, so then where would we be?!

Ah well, guess I’ll just turn on the lights, grab my fleece blanket and start watching Christmas movies.

Happy New Year everyone!