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Back on the wagon!

1 Sep

Writing my somewhat depressing note from yesterday really helped me to get me back on track healthwise.

I had a couple of bad days, but decided that I can’t let that discourage me and that I can’t let it be an excuse to mess up completely.

So, today I ate my normal, healthy food. I drank my 2 liters of water. I did a workout of 5 rounds of 10 squats, 10 sit-ups and 10 on knee push ups. I could hardly bring myself to doing it, but I felt great afterwards. So I broke through that wall again and I am back in workout mode.

I have a nice collection of motivational quotes by now, so I decided to make a collage of the ones that speak to me the most. I’m going to print it out and put it in a frame as a reminder.


I’m feeling more energetic right away, now that I’ve set the record straight and I’m making the right choices again.

I can’t change the situation at work right now, but things should get better soon. The only thing I can change is me. How I take care of myself, how I stick to my goals and how I handle it when I slip up.

Because I will slip up again, no doubt about that. I’m human afterall. Slipping up is not the main issue, how to go from there is. And I proved to myself that I can pick myself up again and go on. That gives me so much confidence for the rest of this journey.

So, I’m a wreck no more. Yay me!


No more sidelines

11 Aug

This morning, I was talking to my friend. We’ve been friends for 10 years now and physically she’s the opposite of me. She’s in excellent shape, does Crossfit 3x a week, does running and she’s always full of energy. A few months ago I was talking to her about my continuing struggle with my weight and health. I’d been going to the gym 3x a week and was amazed by the progress I made. When I started out on the elliptical I died after 10 minutes. Then I managed to do 5km or 45 minutes non-stop.

I was talking to her about how I envy people who just go for a run outside and run 5km. I want to be able to do that. But can I? So I started taking up running and to my surprise, I can run. And my body is ok with it, no pain in my knees or ankles what so ever. I’m not going fast, I’m not going far, but I’m going. My friend offered to train with me. So as of September 2nd, she’s going to be my running coach. Our main goal is to have fun, but also to get me where I want to be. She warned me, she will push me. And that’s what I need: someone to push me. To tell me to keep going when I want to stop.

For as long as I can remember, I haven’t been able to push myself physically. In any other aspect of my life, no problem. I’m up for a challenge. But when it comes to my health and exercise, I just haven’t been able to do it. I’ve always been scared to fail. Or that others would think: look at fatty trying to make an effort. How adorable. And funny.

So, I’ve been watching from the sidelines on so many occasions. We had a teambuilding thing with work: indoor beachvolleyball. Sorry, can’t play, I hurt my back. Just an excuse. We went on a 3 day trip to Austria with a bunch of colleagues a few years ago. Everyone went skiing, but me. I hurt my ankle a while ago and don’t want to risk it. Again, just an excuse. And that’s just a few examples that come to mind.

I’m done with not being part of things. And how do I accomplish that? By being healthy, by eating well, by working out and by building my confidence. That is more important to me than any number on a scale. That is not my main goal anymore.

I’m grateful for my friend who wants to be on this journey with me and who wants to invest her time and energy in me. I feel blessed. Our goal is to run the Color Run next year. And I am sure that I’ll be able to do it.


I’ve been hearing her go on and on about Crossfit and I’ve been doing a lot of research myself. And I decided that I want to be able to do that. To challenge myself and amaze myself. Be strong, be confident. Because I know that person is inside me and it’s time to let her out. First step, I’m going to go to the Box with her, to just watch and see with my own eyes what goes on over there. It’s right next to where I work, so no excuses there.

I don’t want to rush into it, because I have to deal with some mental obstacles of my own first. So I’ll start when it feels right for me. And I know that moment will come.

There’s a documentary series on YouTube “Killing the Fat Man”. Man is overweight and unhealthy and decides to start doing crossfit. His story is incredibly inspirational.

I’m back at the gym tomorrow morning, 7am. Every day is one more step away from the sidelines.


Feeling good!

10 Aug

Whoohoo, weighed in today and I’m down 5 kg! (In total, not in one week of course). Only 45 to go haha.

Work has been very stressful this week and normally I would turn to food for comfort. To my own surprise I haven’t had that urge once this week. Ok, when I was going to the supermarket after work, and I was hungry, the chocolate looked verrrrry good. But no problem leaving it where it was. Last Thursday I had a horrible day at work, I was tired and just wanted to go home. But I had my gymbag at work, because that morning I decided to go after work.

So, to go or not to go? I went. I literally dragged myself there. But boy, did I feel good about myself for going. Is this the so called turn-around point people talk about? I’m feeling really good about myself, I feel healthier and I enjoy making good choices over unhealthy choices. That means more to me than the number on the scale.

On to the next week!

Feeling good

From fatty to fitty. My goal: Color Run 2014

6 Aug

Well, it’s been forever since I posted. Life just got in the way, but I guess that’s a good thing. Because that means: no drama! On the other hand it also means: nothing really exciting. But life have been good to me, so I’m not complaining at all. Got great friends, I like my job and even went on a nice holiday earlier this year. Life is good.

There’s been one thing in my life that I’ve never been able to tackle though: my weight. As a child I was skinny but as I hit puberty, I gained weight. I got severely depressed at 15 and that didn’t help matters. At all! For as long as I remember I’ve been on diets, you name it, I tried it. And where did it get me? Not losing the weight and my body not responding to a healthy lifestyle as somebody else’s body would do.


Now at 38 years old, I’m done. For real. Watching Extreme Weight loss episodes, I got inspired. I tried a low carb diet before and my body responded to that. For a while. I’ve been reading up about Chris Powell and his theory on carb cycling. It sounds like something that could work for me, so I’m committed to making this a success.

Today I had my second low carb day of this week. I did very well, adding some more (good) carbs tomorrow. It takes a lot of effort to prepare everything, but I enjoy it. It gives me a great feeling to do something for my health.

I normally go to the gym 3 times a week, at 7am before work. I have a new goal now: I want to run the 5k Color Run next year.
So my friend, who’s also a running coach, volunteered to be my coach starting September. Our goal: running the Color Run together next year.
I already started a running program, after I got the medical ok to do so. It’s interval training, slowly getting you ready for a 30 minute steady run. It’s hard, 3 times a week, but I feel so accomplished after I finished a session. I also added strength training, so a full body workout it is!

color run

My ultimate goal is to lose 50kg in total (110lbs). So far, I’ve lost 4 kg (9lbs) in a few weeks, so all is going well. Also my body is changing, for the better for a change.

I saw a motivational gimmick with marbles that I’m going to do. Take 2 jars, fill one with 50 marbles or 110. As the weight comes off, a marble will move from one jar to the other. A great way to keep track of my progress and to keep me motivated.


Well, that’s it for now. I’ll be posting here about my progress regularly. My ups and my downs. My triumphs and my weak moments.

Let’s do this!


3 Oct

Eek, I was internetless! Why don’t you just cut off my arms.

But, I’m back. It’s not like I had any time to write anyway. Pfff. Don’t you just hate it when real life gets in the way? Work has been mad. I work at a bank and we’ve merged with another bank. Last Friday the new teams started to work together. So people from two different banks all moved into one place. Still using seperate computer systems, different phonelines and even serving different clients. Can you spell: CHAOS?

For me, this means the last month in my job has begun. I decided months ago that it was time for me to move on. Then the whole reorganisation happened and they had to get rid of a lot of people. At the start of the selection process I made it clear that I’m not really interested in keeping this job. But the back up plan is really good I have to say. For those who are made redundant, they try to find other jobs within the bank. But there is a catch. The bank decides what they think is the right job for you. You can’t say no, becuase that would mean that you volunteer to resign. Consequence: no benefits, no income, no nothing.

If I don’t get anything before November 1st, I have to make the decision: redundancy fee and leave the bank or enroll in the so called “Redeployment Center” aka RDC. That means that I won’t be working in my current job but during a year, the bank will help me find a new job, inside or outside the bank. I get to do courses, trainings and hopefully a great job will come out of that. The best part is that you get paid normal salary for that entire year. So that’s what I’m going for.

I have a couple of great things lined up so I’m sure something amazing will come out of that soon.
It’s been scary to make the decision, but I’m glad I did. I will miss the people at work though. Last Friday we had a gathering and went out for drinks afterwards. I’m going to miss those crazy people. But I’m sure we’ll manage to stay in touch. Luckily I’m very good at that.

So, one more month. Time will fly, I’m sure. After 5 years in this department it’s time to move on.

It’s time to start a new phase in my life. Somehow these ‘new start’ moments always inspire me to make changes in myself as well. So it’s time to finally cut the c**p and stick with my diet and dust off the crosstrainer. I just did a workout, yay me!

New start. Time to invest in me. In my career, my future, my body, my mind.